Dodgy At Best

The Year of Me

// January 28th, 2010 // Uncategorized

I have dubbed 2010 “The Year of Me”.

It is the year that I turn 30, the year that has the fortune to succeed an insane and spirit crushing 2009, and the year that I learn to relax. I figure as my third decade encroaches that I’ve earned the right to flip off unnecessary social propriety and cast aside a paralysing fear of appearing human. It will be the year that I learn to take myself more seriously and my hobbies less so, and that I work on a comprehensive inside-out programme that finds me in my happy place (TBD) 90% of my waking time.

In addition:

• I will be less outwardly pretentious. I say this as I sit here with a massive Ikea mug of delicious homemade vegetable soup that I just “whipped up” and a glass of glorious 2000 vintage La Cardonne from the Médoc. Being a pompous hypocrite certainly does have its perks.

• I will write here at Dodgy daily.  There was a time when I could not live without a journal and it has been years since I’ve kept one regularly.  The lack of reflection time has not gone unnoticed and I really feel that it’s been detrimental to my overall well-being.

• I will get to know my parents.  I know next to nothing about their youth, early relationship, or the whirlwind of destruction that was my toddler-hood.  This is a crime.  I have the best parents in the world (no ‘my mommy didn’t love me’ stories here) and I would like to know them better as people.  When you’re 30 you’re allowed to say that with a straight face.

• I will get into better shape physically.  Laugh all you like, but I have bought a Wii Fit Plus.  It all comes down to knowing yourself.  No matter how many expensive gym memberships I buy, or how many times I want to get back into competitive sports it will not happen.  I know this now.  So I have found something that caters to my need to exercise solo and indulge in video games.  The Year of Mii.

• I will get into better shape mentally.

• Not once will I spend an hour and a half calculating what I would do if I won the lottery that evening.  I will live in the realm of optimistic reality, not self-pitying idealism.

• I will be honest with myself and with others.

• I will count my blessings, each and every one.  There are many and often they are overlooked or overshadowed.